I hope it goes well for your dad, too. And cute, a kitty! I like her name haha.
Do you not remember when you got your schedule? haha. My school doesn't start until september.
Hi, I'm Sam :) I used to think that cutting was just to get attention (because honestly that's why I used to do it) but then it actually became an addiction. I couldn't stop and since no one had really noticed that I was doing it (I was good at hiding it) I didn't feel the need to. Until one day when I posted a picture of my cuts on Facebook and my cousin saw it. She was the only person in my family that was on my Facebook and even though she lectured me, it wasn't a big deal. Except she left it up on her laptop by accident and my uncle saw it. He promised not to tell my mom if I stopped, and for a while I did. But then I started again and I tried rubberbands (snapping them on my wrists), I tried everything I could find on the internet. But finally I found something that worked. The Butterfly Project. I don't know if anyone here has heard of it, but you're supposed to draw a butterfly on your wrist and name it after someone you want to quit cutting for. I named it Janet, after my aunt that committed suicide when I was 13. You're supposed to go a week without cutting and if you make it the whole time, you set the butterfly free. So I set my aunt Janet free. I have only cut one time since then and it was for something really stupid. It helped me so much. I have been struggling with this since I was 13 and now as of today (I'm 17) I haven't cut myself (or even thought about doing it) in five months. I never plan to do it again and I'm even getting a butterfly tattooed on my wrist next year when I turn 18. For anyone struggling with cutting as an addiction, I seriously recommend looking into the Butterfly Project. It changed my life. :)
Wow I heard a different version of the Butterfly Project where you have to wait for the butterfly to wash off on it's own, and I thought it would be cool to work your way up bit by bit, first using washable marker, then pen, then sharpie, to get to the goal of not cutting. Your version I like the idea of "setting the person free," although it might not work so well for everyone because for me all the people who wanted me to stop cutting didn't do it themselves or anything, so I wouldn't have seen why they needed to be set free. I'm glad it worked for you though!
Thanks :) I have never heard of that version of the Butterfly Project, but it's really interesting. It's probably more efficient than the way I used because you'd have to go longer than just a week. I like that version better because of that, but if I had known about it back when I did this, I probably would've done some sort of combination between the two. Because I honestly think that the only reason I didn't cut when I had the butterfly on my wrist was because I kept thinking about my aunt every time I looked at it. I'm not sure if my aunt ever cut herself before, I wouldn't be surprised, but what killed her was a drug overdose. She had so many problems in her life, and the idea of setting her free from all those issues really encouraged me to stop cutting.
Yeah, I guess whatever works for each person; I think the Butterfly Project is pretty adaptable like that.
I cut. I cut cuz i feel nothing. Physical pain is easy, It makes me feel something other than hate. I do it cuz i hate my life. I dug a hole in my wrist with my nail till it bleed for an hour. It was great to feel something. Tho seeing the scares of cut are bad memories. I want to quit but cant it would take so much strength that i dont and will never have. So i cut to feel something.
I'm really sorry that you feel like you have to cut to feel something, Nikki. :( *hugs Nikki* Have you tried asking someone you're close to to help encourage you to stop cutting?