I don't care anymore if I live or die. I'm not saying I want to kill myself but I would not care if some came in my room right now and shot me to death. I also cut to try to feel something in this nothingness we call life but it doesn't work. I was wondering if other people feel this way.
I don't feel like this anymore, but I used to. I also used to cut. If you want to talk, I'm here.
That's a hard question to answer. I mean, there's no simple answer. It's generally going to involve a whole bunch of things and it's likely to be a long process.
I started feeling a whole lot better once I started living my life. I stopped being so reclusive and isolated. I started spending more time actually intereacting with my friends when I was around them, learning new things, interacting in class, etc. It boiled down to being more active in my own life, rather than feeling like a spectator.
I'd recommend that you do this, if you aren't already. And when you don't feel like it, push yourself to anyway. There will be times where this doesn't work as well, or it's a lot harder to do, but if you can, I would advise you to. How you go about doing this could be very different to how I did. You might benefit from reading more, or talking to friends more, or spending time with your family, or finding an interest in your schoolwork, or taking up a new hobby. It's all up to you how you go about it.
This can obviously be difficult if you find it hard to enjoy things, but over time actively participating in these things will feel more natural. When I was first doing this even feeling happy felt alien and wrong, but it steadily felt more and more like what I should be feeling.
So, the main point is, actively participate in your own life, rather than stadning on the sidelines watching it go past you.
I hope that things get better for you. I know how you feel. I have dealt with depression for many years. I know that you are a wonderful person and stay strong.
Yeah, I sometimes wish that too. i cut alot as well, i stopped for awhile then i just thoght "who am i being strong for? It makes sense to me, so why not?" and ik that isnt healthy thinking and stuff, and im not telling you to keep doing it, because self harm is a serious thing and if you can stop, you really should.
Maybe try talking to someone, a guidance coucelor, or a good friend. If anything can help you, it's talking to someone because keeping everything inside is NOT healthy and will only make you worse. Maybe get to know new peeople, find different people you normally wouldnt hang oout with and see where that takes you.