I am slowly slipping into anorexia, I've not been eating much lately, and I usually eat a ton. I only weigh 97 pounds, and the only reason I don't weigh less is because of my metabolism. My metabolism is super overactive, which makes the only thing keeping me at this weight how much I eat. I usually eat a ton, like... a bit of breakfast, two lunches, a snack after school, and a huge dinner, and usually a snack after that. But I just stopped caring, and I can tell I'm already losing weight, but a large part of me doesn't care. I'm 15 and weigh 97 pounds, but I weighed that much before I stopped eating, so I'm less now.
I'm 16 and I weigh 106 lbs. I'm also 5'2". It's all relative. I don't think your in danger of being anorexic yet, but it sounds like you just might lapse into it...
I know what it's like to stop caring. I really do. I used to be so depressed that I had this mantra I'd repeat over and over: "Nobody loves you, it doesn't matter if you die". That's what I would tell myself, word-for-word. I shut off my emotions and walked around not caring about much at all. It gets lonely. I also stopped eating, because that was the one thing I could control, and it felt good to deny myself of something so vital as food.
This way of thinking is destructive. It makes life seem meaningless, like you don't have anything to look forward to, right? Like your worthless, too worthless even to eat.
But guess what? That's a straight-up lie. The same God who made the entire universe with his bare hands and breathed life into the first man loves you, with a love so strong you can't even imagine it. This makes you special. It gives your life purpose. If you turn to him, where he takes your suffering on his own shoulders, your burden will be lifted. It'll be a struggle, but this is how I began to climb out of my pit of darkness.
These are meant to give you hope:
Psalms 9:9 "The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble."
Psalms 34: 18-19 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all."
Deuteronomy 32:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave your nor forsake you. D not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
Deuteronomy 33:27 "The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms."
If you need to talk, I will listen. I've talked to you before about depression, I think. If you want I will pray for you.
~ Jade :)
Right now I think you are fine, but if eating becomes something that disgusts you and you begin to wonder if you are overweight, then you should seek help.
It's easy to look at ourselves and only see the flaws. I myself am overweight, and have struggled my whole life with my body image. A few years ago I slipped into a very dark place. And everyday the only thing that kept me going was the tiny whisper inside of me saying "tomorrow will be better, because nothing can be as bad as today". Yet in the moment everything always seems worse than it is. We see a pebble of a problem and think it's a mountain.
Always remember that you are beautiful the way you are and no matter what anyone tells you (even if that anyone is your own self) you are worth more than skin, blood, and bone. You are loved and therefore worth a heck of a lot to someone. It is easy to look at others and only see their perfection, but as Hank Green says "We are all differently broken, semi-function, rusted out, love machines." Everyone is suffering from something so don't be afraid to ask for help.
I also second all the verses Jade mentioned and I will add this one, which is the two verses that helped me through my depression,
John 16:33 "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world."
Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted, And binds up their wounds."
I hope this helps and I am here to talk whenever.
I almost completely stopped eating when I got depressed. I'd eat dinner to appease my parents, but that was pretty much it at some points. Like you said, it was just that I couldn't find it in myself to care enough. Even eating was too much effort.
My advice is going to sound like complete bull, but it really is the best option. Eat anyway. I know you don't feel like it, and it's too much effort and it feels like you shouldn't even bother, but it is really important. This is what I did. I know it's not always going to work out that way, but as much as possible, you should eat anyway. Maybe find more convenient food to eat. Raw vegetables, or fruit are easy things to simply pick up and eat without preparation. Something that only has to be microwaved is pretty easy too, because you just have to put it in and wait for it to heat up.
Eating regulalrly really will help with that feeling of having no energy. Same with sleeping well, but that one's usually much harder to get a hold of.
Pretty much I'm just not eating much lately... and my boyfriend just seriously hurt me mentally and emotionally and I feel completely worthless to him... and I am mad, but I don't want to leave him, even though I should, because I love him.... and I need him... and that makes both the not eating and the depression i have worse
I'm sorry :(. Boys are stupid sometimes. Can't live with them, can't live without them.
Yes it sure is and I recently just got over it a couple mounths ago. it's a horrible thing to go through I remember my weight was 120 before I got my eating disorder. and I am 5'11". I also whore a size 2 and 3 thta's conciderd underweight. Anyway I'll be more then happy to talk to any girl or bot that is having any weight problems okay!!!! :) Just keep eating okay!
It is a very dark road trust me I've been there and it wasn't pretty I could'nt sleep could'nt feed myself I couldn't do much cause I was super weak it was tarrilble btw I just got over it a couple mounths ago. I remember I was 120 before I got my eating disorder and also 5'11". I wore a size 2 and 3 so that's underwieght so I no what it's like to have wieght problems now I don't really care about my weight.. BTW I'll be more then happy to help any one that's having any weight problems. okay.
Respect yourself. You are beautiful. Don't ever let yourself think otherwise. Supreme confidence is the best accessory. You are incredible, and you deserve happiness. Stay strong, because you are worth it. Always remember that beauty fades faster than wisdom appears. Beauty starts in your head, not your mirror. Stay strong :)
if your boyfriend is abusive, then you are better off without him. things could get worse like you could becomre more depressed or something and you need someone who will stay with you and be good for you.