I'm not okay right now, and I haven't been for a really long time now. I'm almost positive that something’s wrong with my mind, but I can't talk to my parents about it and I don't know who to go to about it. I'm crying a lot. And I never cry. I get crippling head and stomach aches, and I've gotten very insecure; Which is worrying, because I'm a drama kid and I used to have the highest self-esteem I could possibly have, but now I can hardly talk to people. I'm so tired. I'm failing at school. I'm so lost, and so confused, and I don't know what to think anymore. Everyone says it's normal- that it's just stress because that’s what happens to freshmen and it'll just wear off, but the thing is, I've been like this for too long.
My whole life is just sort of falling apart, and I literally have no clue how to fix any of it.
If you guys don't know what to tell me, it's okay, you don't have to say anything really, but I just thought it'd be worth it to ask.
"The good times and the bad times both will pass. It will pass. It will get easier. But the fact that it will get easier does not mean that it doesn’t hurt now. And when people try to minimize your pain they are doing you a disservice. And when you try to minimize your own pain you’re doing yourself a disservice. Don’t do that. The truth is that it hurts because it’s real. It hurts because it mattered. And that’s an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn’t mean that it won’t end, that it won’t get better. Because it will."
A nice quote by John Green there to start off my reply (in one of his videos, not his books).
My point for quoting that to you, is because even if it is a "normal" thing to go through, it doesn't change how it affects you. And it's nice that those people are trying to stop you from stressing about it so much, but once again, that doesn't stop it from sucking.
Would you like to talk about what's been going on lately? Would you like some advice? If so about what specifically?
I'm happy to do what I can to help out :) Just let me know what I can do.
This might actually be a positive thing, looks like you're getting your midlife crisis over early :P.
in all seriousness, I can relate. I've been where you are, and it's a terrible feeling. Part of the reason (in my opinion) why this has been going on so long is because these negative feelings feed on themselves, if that makes sense. If you're up onstage, the fact that you're nervous only makes you more nervous and insincere, and this only produces more anxiety, etc., etc. You have to find a way to cope (do this when you're not onstage) so that when a scary situation DOES come around you are prepared for it and staged right doesn't overwhelm you.
Most of all, sheer perseverance kept my head above the water. Hold on to what you love, if its acting, and don't stop doing it — this'll make you feel worse. To increase your self esteem, simply do good to others. Trust me, when you're not focused on yourself, you find that your sense of self-worth improves greatly.
Hang on. Things WILL get better, the shyness of talking to people WILL disappear (I have this social anxiety too, I am a sophomore and I'm just now coming out of my shell) and as for your stomached and headaches.......
..... I suggest chocolate. Always chocolate.
ok, I know you'll probably hate seeing this, but go to your guidance counselor. trust me, they really do help. they honestly do. they'll help you figure out what's wrong, how to fix it, and how to get your life back on track. seriously, go to your counselor!!!! stay strong :)