fortunetly, no. I used to be bullied when i was younger but that doesnt bother me anymore. It's mostly mother who always puts me down and stresses me out telling me that i am careless and the sorts. My father...well he's not the greatest of father's. He used to abuse me and now i have no contact with him but he keeps bribing me to go see him. School is school and it sucks, but everything has been hitting the fan at once and its just hard to deal with all of that, and on top of everything being a teenage girl in this society is very judgemental.
Yes, society is very judgmental. People think it's their right, their "freedom of speech" to tell others what they think of them...
I don't have the best family life either. I'm judged a lot for my faith, and to make matters worse, my dad is a pastor, and people expect things from you in that situation. I'm not perfect. Also, my stepdad just left last April, leaving behind a 3 yr. old and an 8 yr. old, barely seeing them since then. I used to love him as a father but he won't have anything to do with me now. It hurts--eight years spent with somebody, and then they turn around and abandon you.
So, yeah, life sucks. School sucks. People are gonna judge you. It's harder and harder to find good people in the world, and when you do, they leave. (In my experience, anyways). Yet, what keeps us all going? Nobody feels completely at ease in the word. We're all struggling to make it out alive--yet none ever do (lol). I think the best thing to do is find a reason that you're living, one that makes everything worth it. Why smile now, when later you're only going to feel sorry? It's because these moments make life worth living.
Nobody ever promised us life is going to be one big thrill ride. There will be bumps along the way. You'll crash, and you'll wonder why you even stay on the ride.
But just keep taking it one day at a time. It's worth it--and this is a promise that's real :)
I've got nothing to add to what RarelyJaded said. If you want to talk about anything, or need some advice, I'll be here :)
well, just downed some pills, lets see how long it will take for me to throw them up... dont worry... i didnt OD.
Do you need to talk? I'm here for you.
thanks.. i still feel nauseous. The feeling will hopefully pass.
Did you take the pills for medical reasons, or did you take them in an attempt on your life?
Stay strong, freeday:) Tell me what I can do to make you feel better......I don't think pictures of baby pandas helped :P
I took them so I would throw up in a desperate attempt to lose weight, but when I did I kinda realized how idiotic it was and im getting help soon... Pictures of baby pandas? Lol pandas are cute.
I'm glad you decided to get help :)
Yes, I think that's a step in the right direction. Good for you :) and dang, you didn't see my baby pandas? :)
no, i didnt see them... did u post a pic or something? show me a link maybe...
Oh, lol, that was another thread.
So how r ya doin?
Much better thank you... Been keeping busey and playing with my niece. Shes a handful.
hey sorry i guess this is kinda late but I read the thread and i just had to say something.
#1: FAT IS BEAUTIFUL! everyone is always so judgemental about weight I personally dont care how much people weigh or about any of that.
#2: sometimes when i feel depressed I just think that school and all of that stuff only lasts for less than twenty % of your life! its just like doing exersise or something, its always easy to give up but if you just get through it than you can go and watch tv for the rest of the day. :D so that was supposed to be an analogy for life or something
#3: OMG I LOVE PANDAS ESPECIALLY IN THE RED VARIETY!!!
lol omg Childofthemind, that just made my day. I've been doing alot better :) but hey, that's life. I couldnt have gotten through it without you guys so thank you all of you who care enough to respond. I now know that there ARE people out there that are kind enough and considerate enough to stop and help someone out. I had an amazing day today. filled with so much laughter. lol idky hehe just thought id share amongst you peeps. sooo thank you guys for believing in me! You are all beautiful!!!
I'm glad you're doing well :)