Does anyone want to share their experinces to help me?
I have OCD, Tourettes and either A. Aspergers or B. Schizoid.
But I don't have schizophrenia ( I have a friend that has it though) and i would like to know more so i can write a very realistic (or close to realistic) novel.
Well I've been hallucinating for as long as I can remember and I was diagnosed with Schizotypal personality disorder. It's not that bad, I mean I'm paranoid as he.ll and scare off a lot of people with my observations or portrayals of what I see. Sometimes if I'm tired or unsuspecting, a hallucination will startle me, but I've learned to deal with it for the most part. There are a few beings that keep on coming so I've named them. There is Samael, and he is extremely annoying. He likes to try and distract me for attention. Yesterday he sang Kashmir by Led Zeppelin about seven times in a row. Then there is Elva who is a light being and she opens up the patterns of the world for me. I can see between everything, it's crazy. There's also Eberdean who comes to me in my sleep or when all is quiet, and he brings me on a crazy drug trip thing. He's fun. My favorite is Conriocht. He is wild and only listens to his instincts. Sometimes I become Conriocht and I'll run around on all fours, I won't be able to speak or think beyond animal instincts. That has been happening since I was very young. They call it clinical zooanthropy when you believe you are an animal. I feel so much better after I let Conriocht take over, it feels right. Sometimes I'll wake up outside covered in mud and animal blood, but it still feels right. All in all, I enjoy my quirks, but for some people schizophrenia is a nightmare.
Ahhhh schizophrenia :) how neat. They say I have it, I say I have closer friends. My friend is Sally. She is a bi.tch . She is so mean and nasty, saying everything she thinks. SE takes over sometimes, and makes other people upset. She hates me- she wants control... But I love her. Without her, who am I? Wo is Kristina? I don't know... Sally does. Sally says I am a worthless pathetic girl. I rather be that than nothing though....