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.Hannibal. posted this thread...
Sept. 10, 2012 at 4:48 pm

So, I think I had a bit of a breakdown . . . idk. My parents were yelling and all that sh.it, and I normally would try to leave, or tell them to stop or cry. But then I just felt like . . . empty. And like I didn't care at first. So then I went to practice violin. And I got through several songs before I realized I wanted to write. Writing is a bit like my self-therapy; I have a journal where I'll just spew my emotions and it will normally help me calm down. But this time it didn't. Instead I started to feel stranger and stranger, and I felt like I was like detached and floating. And when I look back at what I wrote . . . it's really strange. Really, really strange. And then I finally started to cry. Not like sobbing crying, just silent tears. And the way I felt then I can't really describe, it was weird and out of it and seriously not normal. Almost a little insane. Then I almost broke my violin, I felt the urge to break something. And I tried to break the string, but I couldn't, and for some reason that really really messed me up. So I undid the string and tried to break it with my hands, but I couldn't, and I kept twisting it around my fingers until it cut into my skin and I bled a bit (it was the e string) and so I was sitting in the chair silently crying with my hand bleeding and my violin missing a string, and I don't know what was going on in my head. It was not normal, it was totally irrational and scary, and when I look back, I think there was something seriously wrong with me. Any help?

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JamieNicole replied...
Sept. 10, 2012 at 4:56 pm

If you really feel that way then you need to go to a doctor. :) We all need help sometimes.

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Halas J. replied...
Sept. 10, 2012 at 6:42 pm

Doctors don't help. All they do is say what you should've done and get paid for that. Just try to find out how to settle it. We all got da way.

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.Hannibal. replied...
Sept. 13, 2012 at 5:00 pm

I don't think I could do that. Tell my parents that them yelling at each other made me go loopy? They'd probably just yell at each other more and then I'd be worse. :/ Or blame my friends, because some of them cut last year. And I guess I'll find a way. I've jsut been . . . weird lately. I don't know what's wrong with me.

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paperflowers replied...
Oct. 4, 2012 at 4:32 pm

first of all, I can completely relate to you about the violin and the writing and I've wanted to break mine before too. Except nice people gave me lots of money to get mine so I just thinking about how upset everyone else would be if I broke it. (also are you able to get your e string back on? :/ those can be expensive-ish)
 
You know, it could be stress + hormones since I think you're a girl (?) and a lot of times girl hormones come at really unexpected times that don't even make sense or anything. So keep that in mind.
 
I think it's normal to get upset about things and just want to break things - yourself, or other objects. My 9 year old sister gets like that all the time and just starts screaming, "You're making me claustrophobic!" when I'm completely across the room or maybe not evne in the room at all. So, I don't think there's anything seriously wrong with you.
 
I recently got a new doctor who kicked my sibling/mom out of the room and started asking me if I had d.epression and stuff, and she mentioned that getting enough sleep and eating right can help with your moods, too. 
I hope this helps. 

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paperflowers replied...
Oct. 4, 2012 at 4:32 pm

first of all, I can completely relate to you about the violin and the writing and I've wanted to break mine before too. Except nice people gave me lots of money to get mine so I just thinking about how upset everyone else would be if I broke it. (also are you able to get your e string back on? :/ those can be expensive-ish)
 
You know, it could be stress + hormones since I think you're a girl (?) and a lot of times girl hormones come at really unexpected times that don't even make sense or anything. So keep that in mind.
 
I think it's normal to get upset about things and just want to break things - yourself, or other objects. My 9 year old sister gets like that all the time and just starts screaming, "You're making me claustrophobic!" when I'm completely across the room or maybe not evne in the room at all. So, I don't think there's anything seriously wrong with you.
 
I recently got a new doctor who kicked my sibling/mom out of the room and started asking me if I had d.epression and stuff, and she mentioned that getting enough sleep and eating right can help with your moods, too. 
I hope this helps. 

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paperflowers replied...
Oct. 4, 2012 at 4:33 pm

I only pressed the "post reply" button once; idk why it posted twice. o.O

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HotHotPolkaDOTThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. replied...
Oct. 13, 2012 at 7:28 pm

Yeah, sometimes I feel that way too, and it's especially when my parents spaz like that. Try doing some excersise, it'll get your endorphins pumping plus it'll tire you out. Listen to music, too, since it with help, especially if it's  relaxing.

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