With a blink of my eye, i want to see Flynn, standing humbly in front of me. Passing by is hard for me, seeing he's not by my side. I have something in my mind. It can't be vanish by anything or anyone, even amnesia can't. I highly understand why he have to leave but it makes me uncomfortable and lonely. Money is really a need for him but what i need is only him and his love. Flynn gave my heart so much bliss that i will never forget and without him is what i hate the most. Preganancy is never my choice when he's away, so forgive me for i will leave our child in the child care.
Before my love left, he told me something. Everynight, i should count the stars because the more stars i count, the more chance that he will came back but i already counted millions of stars before i fall asleep, but even once he didn't show up his handsome face. As petals falls, im losing hope that he will came back. Is that really true? Or a stupid belief that would never happened? Will i supposed to wait and wait until my love finally arrived?
Missing you is a very stupid thing though i want to adoringly live in this world. How can i live in this world without you? It's the most impossible of the most impossible things in this magical world. Look at the lovers in France, they are surely happy for what they have now, but look at me, with a frown face and missing you so much. How more tears should fall through my eyes? How many more pains should my heart recieve in missing you?
Im sorry, please forgive me. I already saw a love that will complete my life and it's Duke. Im sending you now a letter. A letter of goodbye noting that im now happy with my new love. What would be your reaction? I want you to be in a bright smile, just like me. Guess what, i already change. I never count the stars at night and mostly, i will going to learn to forget you.. But the yesterday will never be broken ,thus the love of the past will surely return.
The day i am very excited with. My wonderful and unforgettable wedding.But why am i feeling so empty? My elder sister said i should not feel that way. It's my wedding, i should be happy. My body color should not be faded as my gown blooms so bright. Though i am excited for i know i will have a partner in my life,but i am still in doubt, i can't explain. Is this what they call second thoughts? How annoying isn't it?! As the marriage rhythm sings with the wedding birds, my heart is telling me not to walk going to the altar of the church. Finally i said i do but something is bothering me. Why? The question that stucks in my heart and mind.
The 2nd year anniversary of me and Duke. We didn't celebrate much cause we are in grief knowing that we can't make an angel in our life. I try to relief the strenghts of the wind that blows hard but the truth hurts so much. Tears are overflowing in our mansion as loneliness flows within. Im sorry Duke, i can't perform any medicines to heal our immortal pains.
One morning shines in my eyes. I was sitting in the mall when i saw the love that i am bother with and it's him again. He show up into the cornea of my eyes but does it mean he's my ex love? Yes? no? yes? no? oh im so tired of thinking! I don't want to betray my husband whom i promise to love forever and ever. He came near into my soul and my heart sings again, i hope his heart sings too. Now i realize, i should have wait before i said i do to the love i am not that confident to deal with. I want to tell you now, a note that stucks in my heart forever. "What is it?" My love asked with tears as he came near. "I love you Goodbye" A note which pains me a lot knowing that i made the worse decision in my whole life, and that is setting Flynn away like bubbles!
Please tell me that this is just a a nightmare that i can wake with a smile. That i can wake with a joy in my smashing face. I want to greet Flynn and say hi. I want to kiss him within my lips. But then i can't deny the fact. It was just a lie. I ran away for the reason im afraid that i might lost my temper.
As years goes by, Duke died due to cancer. My tears flow with guilty deep inside my heart. He died without having a child, or even just a true love of a family. I can't smile, or even just to show my teeth. I am alone now, no husband, no child and especially no love. Do you think i can still join disco parties? Is this the punishment of all of my mortal sins?
Silence in the house take over after the years of death of the one i promise to love. One ordinary day, a tragedy happened that no one expected. A hideous fire burned my precious house. How can i live now without a house? Fortunately, a sweet girl comforted me and offer me a care in her old house. She's familiar and i saw myself to her. As me and that girl join in a house, i learn that she's my lost daughter whom i sent to child care when i was really nothing. At first, she didn't accept the fact but days pass, she finally consider me as her real mother despite of the sins i commited.
Flynn was a good parent after all. He didn't let his child in a care of a stranger, unlike me. I was a very unkind mother that my daughter could have. My daughter's name is Jenny, she's cute, humble, and kind. She told me the fact that Flynn has already a wife, a love, a partner in life. I wish i could change everything, but that's the thing that money can't do in this world of humans. Joining my journey in life is like riding in the speed of a racing car, riding in the fastest horses in the world, and riding in the most dangerous roller coaster in the entire universe.
I am surely regretting for all the wrong things i have done.The things that i should supposed to do a long time ago- to wait until Flynn came back and to nourish our unforgettable love.Despite of all the things happened in my life, i am still happy that i have an angel after all i have done.An angel that paints different colors in my faded life. Im saying I love you Goodbye but our love will never end, for sure.
Before my love left, he told me something. Everynight, i should count the stars because the more stars i count, the more chance that he will came back but i already counted millions of stars before i fall asleep, but even once he didn't show up his handsome face. As petals falls, im losing hope that he will came back. Is that really true? Or a stupid belief that would never happened? Will i supposed to wait and wait until my love finally arrived?
Missing you is a very stupid thing though i want to adoringly live in this world. How can i live in this world without you? It's the most impossible of the most impossible things in this magical world. Look at the lovers in France, they are surely happy for what they have now, but look at me, with a frown face and missing you so much. How more tears should fall through my eyes? How many more pains should my heart recieve in missing you?
Im sorry, please forgive me. I already saw a love that will complete my life and it's Duke. Im sending you now a letter. A letter of goodbye noting that im now happy with my new love. What would be your reaction? I want you to be in a bright smile, just like me. Guess what, i already change. I never count the stars at night and mostly, i will going to learn to forget you.. But the yesterday will never be broken ,thus the love of the past will surely return.
The day i am very excited with. My wonderful and unforgettable wedding.But why am i feeling so empty? My elder sister said i should not feel that way. It's my wedding, i should be happy. My body color should not be faded as my gown blooms so bright. Though i am excited for i know i will have a partner in my life,but i am still in doubt, i can't explain. Is this what they call second thoughts? How annoying isn't it?! As the marriage rhythm sings with the wedding birds, my heart is telling me not to walk going to the altar of the church. Finally i said i do but something is bothering me. Why? The question that stucks in my heart and mind.
The 2nd year anniversary of me and Duke. We didn't celebrate much cause we are in grief knowing that we can't make an angel in our life. I try to relief the strenghts of the wind that blows hard but the truth hurts so much. Tears are overflowing in our mansion as loneliness flows within. Im sorry Duke, i can't perform any medicines to heal our immortal pains.
One morning shines in my eyes. I was sitting in the mall when i saw the love that i am bother with and it's him again. He show up into the cornea of my eyes but does it mean he's my ex love? Yes? no? yes? no? oh im so tired of thinking! I don't want to betray my husband whom i promise to love forever and ever. He came near into my soul and my heart sings again, i hope his heart sings too. Now i realize, i should have wait before i said i do to the love i am not that confident to deal with. I want to tell you now, a note that stucks in my heart forever. "What is it?" My love asked with tears as he came near. "I love you Goodbye" A note which pains me a lot knowing that i made the worse decision in my whole life, and that is setting Flynn away like bubbles!
Please tell me that this is just a a nightmare that i can wake with a smile. That i can wake with a joy in my smashing face. I want to greet Flynn and say hi. I want to kiss him within my lips. But then i can't deny the fact. It was just a lie. I ran away for the reason im afraid that i might lost my temper.
As years goes by, Duke died due to cancer. My tears flow with guilty deep inside my heart. He died without having a child, or even just a true love of a family. I can't smile, or even just to show my teeth. I am alone now, no husband, no child and especially no love. Do you think i can still join disco parties? Is this the punishment of all of my mortal sins?
Silence in the house take over after the years of death of the one i promise to love. One ordinary day, a tragedy happened that no one expected. A hideous fire burned my precious house. How can i live now without a house? Fortunately, a sweet girl comforted me and offer me a care in her old house. She's familiar and i saw myself to her. As me and that girl join in a house, i learn that she's my lost daughter whom i sent to child care when i was really nothing. At first, she didn't accept the fact but days pass, she finally consider me as her real mother despite of the sins i commited.
Flynn was a good parent after all. He didn't let his child in a care of a stranger, unlike me. I was a very unkind mother that my daughter could have. My daughter's name is Jenny, she's cute, humble, and kind. She told me the fact that Flynn has already a wife, a love, a partner in life. I wish i could change everything, but that's the thing that money can't do in this world of humans. Joining my journey in life is like riding in the speed of a racing car, riding in the fastest horses in the world, and riding in the most dangerous roller coaster in the entire universe.
I am surely regretting for all the wrong things i have done.The things that i should supposed to do a long time ago- to wait until Flynn came back and to nourish our unforgettable love.Despite of all the things happened in my life, i am still happy that i have an angel after all i have done.An angel that paints different colors in my faded life. Im saying I love you Goodbye but our love will never end, for sure.
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