I close my eyes and throw the pillow back over my head. I wanted to go back to bed and finish my dream. My dream was happy, we were still friends. I love the message it sends me. It tells me what i really want. But i know it isn't true. and i promise i'm not crying over you, not anymore, because you're not worth the pain. I'd rather spend six days in the pouring rain than become attached to you one more time. And now i'm awake, no more dreams about you. The feelings i had are gone i left them on my pillow, they have decended, decended into oblivion!
January 5, 2010