I’m trying to pass off as someone I’m not, trying to seem like I FEEL but I don’t. I don’t really get sad or happy or angry. It’s not numbness, it just takes a lot more to get me emotional. It’s a battle from my nature which is very perfectionist tidy and all that and what I chose, to be free spirited and wild and messy. And it’s like they’re fighting each other for control and I just want to tell my selves to shut up and get along because you’re tearing me apart.